Some while ago, I skimmed through my old school notes. While disposing of most of it, I found a few things I deem interesting enough to share here.
How much did I have to catch up on when I entered a rural primary school after second grade? But the air was easier to breathe here. My school certificates from that time read comments like: settled in well, fertile imagination, caring and outgoing, yet many a time deliberately breaking school rules.
I wonder if that was an adverse effect Lara had on me? After all, back then I currently played my first PC adventure game: Tomb Raider 2. Well, I can’t be sure if it affected me in that manner. It may be true that the central character of the Tomb Raider series is not known for her doing things by the book. However, she didn’t exactly have an exemplary function for me then.
Thanks to the competent teachers at the new school, I managed to complete primary school with decent grades. It wasn’t enough for grammar school though. My class teacher thought it might take a while longer for the penny to drop, and that there was time to decide later.
Therefore, I moved up into middle school, where things were quite different. Here I got to enjoy an orderly education. Doodling wasn’t approved of, for instance, and was consistently censured in regular folder controls.
On the first school annual report at middle school, my class teacher remarked, that often I seemed unconcentrated, and that I had problems reacting adequately to conflict and critique. Now, I blame my parents.
She also remarked that I rarely succeeded in integrating my versatile interests into classes. Well, sometimes harmonising the necessary things with pleasure worked out just fine, and sometimes it did not.
In seventh grade, when less positive occurrences echoed through my life, my class teacher at the time noted that too often the educational content simply left me cold. He further noted that I did not quite align myself with the school class, and that I started work only upon demand. To cut a long story short, much scribbling came into being these days.
With the annual report from eighth grade, I hit bottom, so to speak. Frankly, I had other fish to fry. So, among other things, the assessment read that my school performance had dropped further, that I was easily distractable and unfocused a lot of the time, and moreover much of a loner.
Indeed, I went through some tough times then, and for a number of reasons I was convinced to be better off alone. Maybe this is why I grew even fonder of Tomb Raider. Lara Croft is about the embodiment of independence. Whatever she sets out to do, she can manage on her own. Anyway, by now this games series had acquired a supportive function for me. Naturally, this circumstance was reflected in my doodling and creative work.
It is curious how quickly the wording changed when in my final two years at middle school I found refuge in schoolwork. Once my grades got better, my behaviour was not scrutinised as much, despite my being unalterably withdrawn into myself and hardly participating in the world.
Thus, the last annual report before graduation read that I met the requirements and expectations. It also attested to my impersonal behaviour, which seemed firm and resilient, apparently. As a result of the shift, my doodling got scarce, but where appropriate, Tomb Raider was still made my subject once in a while.
Apart from that, I had found a hobby which allowed me to be creative and from which I could draw strength. Gradually and over many years, designing objects and levels put me in touch with some lovely people; and gradually and over many years, it changed everything.
As if it were yesterday,
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